Thursday, January 28, 2010

silver lining?

"Everything in your life is there because you created, promoted, or allowed it."
                                                             
                                         - someoneoncetoldme.com


How ridiculously true is this quote when you think about it? Everything around me, is here because I allowed it, or I put it there. All of my friends, all my mistakes, everything that's ever bothered or repeatedly hurt me. That's all my doing. Therefore I cannot blame others for my misfortune. A stronger person, would have stood up for their right to happiness, regardless of the opinions of their family and friends. I love my family dearly, but it hurts me that though they say they have my best interests in mind, it would seem that my happiness is not one of those interests. Which makes it difficult. I've been brainwashed to believe that family bonds are the strongest, that they will stand up for you and never hurt you, even if that means protecting you from other family members.
Well, I was sure wrong about that. I am disgusted with the behavior my family has exhibited in my times of need. I am shocked and appalled that when I did flat out ask for help, I was told to deal with it myself. I was discouraged by the spineless actions my family members have taken, the same ones I have looked up to for years for inspiration and guidance who, for years have taught me to stand up for myself and take bad treatment from no one.

Surprise

I guess they're weaker than I thought.
To make mistakes is human,
To be scared is human,
To change your mind is human,
To expect someone to tolerate any sort of abuse is repulsive and unforgiveable.





A bit of friendly advice:

1 comment:

  1. This is wise and insightful. So much so that I actually question whether your first paragraph was a quote before I realized it was just you being brilliant.

    Yes, there is such thing as "blood family", people you are bonded to. But there is also the family you chose to surround yourself with. And as the second group, we love and support you quite a lot :)

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